The older I get, Maybe I'll get over it...

Tonight was interesting. I don't know why, it just was.

Ang was unable to find a third person in replacement of Ali, so it was just her and me most of the night. Hillary helped, but she opened and was already scheduled to close on counter, so she couldn't stay on waitstaff forever. Ang too wasn't much interested in taking tables for long, so I spent much of the night paroling the whole dining room, taking some 20 tables and making some $120.

I'd have been out in the 10:45pm range if I had really tried, but I decided to chill and watch some Futurama while rolling silverware. Then, after the silverware in front of me was gone, I preceded to watch more Futurama while not doing anything else. I wasn't exactly holding anyone else up, as by the time I left at 11:30pm, Ren, Matt, and Marty were all still hanging around. They're probably still there now.

When I stepped outside, I immediately wished I had left earlier; what a wonderful night it was. I rolled down the windows and had a lovely drive home, including running into 4 police cars. The air was so nice. It always makes me think about everywhere I could drive to. I had over $400 in my pocket, and I could have gassed up and driven pretty much anywhere. I always get weird when I feel free like that. I think about all the situations I could get into, how I tie myself down to a job, school, and people when I really don't have to, and what I would do if I really could do anything.

I can't wait to really be free from the long-applied restraints of childhood that still control me. It's times like these that I realize just how strong they still are. One of these days, everything that restrains me will be self-created. Is that freedom enough?

I dropped by my fianceé's house and found Hanna leaving and someone turning all the lights out. I still got to see De, but only for a second. It was nice nonetheless. Now here I am, home, sleepless, with a paper to finish that's due at 10:00am, and a head full of thoughts about everything and anything else. Tim's in PA overnight. I'm all alone with my thoughts. Somebody save me...

Could I be lost, could I disappear
Could I be lost, would you find me here
Could I be lost in a secret place
Could I rest in the shadow of your face