The way it always was, it's no longer good enough...

I need to be brave.

That's easier said than done.

I'm sitting here in the library, doing anything I can to distract me from all this work I have to do. I hate being a procrastinator. I feel like I never have enough time for the things I want to do. Things like spend time with my girlfriend, keep the house clean (more of a need than want, but still...), read, sleep, enjoy life.

The problem is that when I evaluate these things and my life, it's not because I have too much to do that I cannot do the things I want, it's that I procrastinate in doing the things I need to do. Granted, writing this entry only takes 10 minutes, but I will probably have wasted most of these three hours here by the time it's said and done. Still, I have to do this work sometime. So, instead of doing it now and enjoying myself later, I play around, piddle, and waste away my time on the little things (thanks Hanna for getting that stupid comic stuck in my mind).

Anyways, I won't let myself go to bed tonight until I've gotten a day's worth of work done, and if that means I don't sleep, then I won't sleep. I need to teach myself a lesson. I hope to have re-evaluated myself enough over the summer to be able to avoid all this mess when the fall semester comes around.

That is, if I even attend school in the fall. My mother has not called the guy who holds my college fund (I'd do it myself, but I cannot touch that fund until I turn 21... in a month). For me to register for classes in the fall, I need to 1) see a counselor to clear me for registering, and 2) have paid for the spring semester. To pay for the spring semester, I need the money from that fund. I've expressly said that if I cannot get the classes I need because they are full (registration started April 25), then I will not take classes this semester. Sigh. It makes me wonder what the point is anyways.

As I look outside, I see it is a wonderful day. I think I might go out there and enjoy it for a few before going to class and getting back to work. That's all folks!

Additions to my Summer list:

• Celebrate end of semester
• Fix phone (although I'll probably do this today or tomorrow)
• Start eating a little better
• Clean up the apartment, and more specifically, my bedroom

**No Hannas were intentionally insulted in the writing of this blog entry.**